A time I felt beautiful - Ava
A little bit of information, yes, that is my left hip/leg. In college, I lost a lot of weight due to changes in diet, increase of exercise & eating disorder tendencies. I have more than a few stretch marks & they will be there forever. On my journey of self-acceptance & body positivity, I have to be extra gentile with myself, as I have felt physically undesirable for years.
Fast forward to my wedding night. My husband was a virgin & I was the only naked woman he’d ever seen in person. That night, as he ceremoniously [without prompt!] carried me over the threshold of our somewhat-isolated cabin, he looked at me lovingly & said I was beautiful. It was pouring down rain & we were wet to the bone from bringing in our luggage. The movies are truly based on real life.
He is neither classically “romantic” nor one to give compliments often, especially about physical appearance, as he fights against vanity [which has made me so much stronger.] But through our time together, he has taught me so much by not being hung up on appearances.
Before you start thinking he’s a god among men, when I mentioned this moment to him a couple of days ago & how significant it was to me, he had no recollection of it whatsoever. But that doesn’t send me into a whirlwind of self-doubt. I just calmly accept that he is such a stabilizing, healthy force in my life & he does, indeed, find me beautiful.